Falling
Falling,
Painfully,
Completely.
Can’t get up,
Can’t come back.
You offer your hand-
I shake my head.
You come to my rescue-
I refuse.
You try again-
I turn my back.
I keep falling
Pitch dark.
I’m scared.
I’d love some help
You offer some
I want to accept.
A shadow in-between
Lurking ahead of me
Won’t allow-
My pride.
Just a shadow- virtual, make believe.
I’m still falling.
You turn your back.
I fall away-
Never to come back.
My fault.
By My Side
I stand alone-
Gazing at the road-
The road with that bend.
What lies beyond?
No one knows.
I fear for the future.
I fear my past.
My present feels surreal.
I doubt I’ll last.
He comes-
Holds my hand;
Guides me through the dark;
Guides me through that bend.
Surreal still.
But I laugh.
I can survive.
I will last.
A Desire Not Sated
I never let myself believe,
It would ever be right,
It just might work out
We just might be happy.
Now it’s over.
You’ve left me-
With my doubts, my cynicism;
My fears, my inhibitions.
Not that I blame you-
For to blame am I
I, for my lack of belief
Lack of trust, lack of faith.
These lackings cost me
Love-
A life- of happiness
A life- desired by all.
Left it a wish unfulfilled.
A desire not sated.
And so I suffer
As I will,For as long as I live
